susahnya sabar

hoamm long time no post nihhhhh
asal kalian tau aja sih my life 

LIMIT

X-> DIE 

shout me shout me like a bullet *nyanyi-_-

biasa sih sekarang pengen curhat aja... kalo ternyata tuh jadi orang sabar susah banget. rasanya tuh gemes banget, gregetan banget tapi harus sabar. ya beginilah hidup.

padahal udah usaha loh buat gak mentingin ego eh tapi manusia manusia ada aja problemnya. harusnya sih tau juga ya kesabaran orang ada limitnya juga loh........

 

pernah gak sih jadi secret admire? nah persis banget tuh rasanya kaya orang sabar. pasti gregetan banget kan pengen ngomong yang sebenarnya di depan mukanya? apalagi kalo si doi nya gak peka gitu trs acuh gak acuh *eaaaa.

btw secret admire emang harus selalu sabar ya??? hihihi

 

  

winter season

hiyaaaa hello everybody!! i hope you not boring reading my blog :)
i know Indonesia, haven't winter season. Indonesia just have dry season and wet season. sometimes it makes me crazy... even though the wet season, the temperature always hot, because the sun always shining. huft..

and fyi i never touch the snow. i just ever touch the ice that formed into snow. like imitation snow. but i hope someday i will touch the snow and feel how cold the snow. because it, i always dreaming that i live in the 4 season. not just the snow but i just wanna school in the 4 season. because in there have the 2 uniform. summer uniform and winter uniform.

and i always like too the winter fashion. so i draw it. the tittle is winter in my sketchbook!  

i don't know why i love the fashion winter. i just thinking that is so fun! when you can mix & match the cape, coat, boots, scarf, and many more. how much clothes you can wear, but you never feel sultry or hot. and your sweat never fall because the temperature so cold. i just love it!!!

and i hope someday i live in japan, England, spain, Italy or french! i wanna touch the snow!!! pray for me please.... 

sometime you need standart about everything.

ohaiyogonzaimasu! ogenkidesuka?
it's amazing. right? i'm wake up in the morning at 6 a.m on holiday! *listening depapepe-wake up! so i wanna playing bicycle but at the night it's rainy so now the way is wet. then i think about the standart. i think standart it's very important. everything in the world need the standart.

hmm like smart student must have 100 score in their raport or must pass in the national exam or just understand the subject matter??? please explain this. and the government make the standart. eventhough you don't understand the subject matter you must follow the government rule, follow the final exam. if you pass the final exam, you're amazing. you smart!

why i said about the standart? i just tell my experiece, not the smart student. i just wanna say about my mom. my mom said 'i'm dot doing anything to make my room cleaning' oh god you must know. i wanna cleaning my room but not yesterday. because i know. i have a week holiday so many days that i have.and you must know too i'm doing anything. i'm washing dishes, take clothes from clothesline, ironing clothes. then my mom said i'm not doing anything??? oh please tell me the standart about doing anything!

i have the one again. my mom and my father said i must study hard. because my chemistry score is 63. it's original my replications midterm. and 63 not very bad!! oh god... why i must have 100 in my chemistry score?? it's the standart???

from this story i really need the standart about everthing. this could lead to many problem. misscomunication and everything. are you have same experience like me? share with me.. hehe. peace!

*sorry if there are any wrong spell. i'm just wake up. ya you know lah hahha :p

drama queen

i dont know, why i'm stuck in that situation. i think it was over to be diary book from other peoples. but in the fact, no. it's like drama queen. in that drama involved actors, film director, manager, etc. i never never think like the fact, like the drama they make. never think that i'm involved too. not be first actor, maybe manager from actor

yesterday, yesterday and yesterday i heard the rumor form my friend1. her talking all about the drama. but i'm not trusted 100% maybe i believe that 75%. because is dificult to believe. peoples around me(my friends) make the drama. make the drama queen in difficult settings. and finally i know everything from her. (she is the back actor)

then a week later my friend2 say the same rumor like her to me. i say 'i know. a week later' then, now i belive 95% (5% is the miss communication). my friend2 is the actor too but not the first actor. she says 'she not believing. she involved in that drama.' see? her not believing, what about me??? so hard story.

and so many people around their not aware the drama. the writter, write the story very well and neat. the film director have a good taste. and the actor acting so damn well. everyone not suspicious it.

i just wanna say, karma is behind you. do not playing her/his feeling. and i wanna know about the ending this drama. sad or happy?

from this fact i wanna make the novels like the drama. wait my story yaaa